胃痛（T~T）

为什么我酱烦！
烦实习的去处
烦实习的住处
烦实习的交通
烦实习的每一样可能、没可能发生的细节
越想越烦越压力。。
胃病又复发了！！！
胃酸失调。。。
痛........o(Y~Y)o
为何在我酱烦的时候
是自己一个人呢？
不是没有伴
只是看他不在乎！
不闻不问的态度。。。
令我有种扮演老公出外打拼的角色
而他却在家等开饭。。。
朋友说要推一推这辆老爷车呀~~~
三加一个月的实习
我会累垮leh!!!

放在祷告中~请为我代祷。。
我需要力量！

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waiting exam...

i love music!!!

last week....
d beeziest week ever in my maktab life
i can only get to sleep almost 1am everdae
for a cinderella like me[i mean i usually sleep b4 twelve]..
its killing!!!><
MUSIC CONCERT 2010
TAMAT GERKO PERFORMANCE
DEEPANITE PERFORMANCE
EXTENDED DANCE PERFORMANCE+TOOLS PERCUSSION JAMMING
who says music student is free??nope....
but our class 6PISMP MU cherished d hectic week together
n yet its a sweet memory n experience for us...rit guys? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
behind d scene of MUSIC CONCERT
im happie for severel reason here as i get to tryout some new toy here..=P
^^DRUM SET^^
1st trial...
my greatest satisfaction!!!!hahahah
it's my dream dream dream to ever ever ever play~
i cant play funky drumming pattern
juz up to beat...tats it..."enough eat"
and tis is d MAN i accompanied..
HOTET~my buddy....


a bit nervous and stressup when i knew i had 2accompany his piano playin with my immature playing skill...
a song composed by himself...
after a bit of briefing from MR. HO n there he left me with d drum set...
"zi gei zhap sang"(cantonese saying)
still can feel d shakey hand and my uncoordinated leg n hand...
ohh how tension!!!!
when i played wrongly he will stare me through d eyes...
ooOOOoooopsss~n he got to start over again...
hehhehee....shhh
i made myself a small notes on d pattern of drumming...
to avoid KANTOI on d performing day...=X
d other reason which makes me "butterfly" is
Shazwan...d king of Drummer in IPTB juz behind d audience~!
@___@ all i do is juz "dap dai tao" and play
as if very yao yeng~
but actually im full of nervous!!!
but when i see a thumbs up from HOTET,,
im soooooo relieved!!!huak~o(^~^)o
pass my drumming test~
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next satisfaCtiOn~~~
eeniemeeniemiiniemore...
i am d AJK for Perhiasan Pentas
which is a tough job
as i helped xueli last year
n i knew im gonna hav a "one day trip" spent with d music room's board...
wooo~~~nightmare...
i cant find inspiration and idea on tat blank board!!!
n its up to me....
even lecturer keep on asking me!
"Do something....do something!!!!!"
2moro is d dae but im still zero~~
after a whole day spent in music room....with my stinky attire
it's DONE!!!!
and i like it very much...=]
thou some commented a bit like kindergarden decoration...hahah
thanks to my on n off crew..
jun..ah teh..yeeming..nan..xmin..tet..pii(thx 4ur word)..did i leftout anyone?


"play the music....not the instrument"

n this is my partime job on tat dae....technician
which involved wiring n miking...


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last but not least
a sudden recovery of my frienship....
after a loooooOOOOng while....
thanks thanks 4 yer help
when im stuck wit d WORDS...
thanks 4accompanying me indirectly(thou i noe u r accompanying sum1 else lar..)
kept on reminding me tat im late!!!!pheeww..><

i added eye sore...for our frienship here XD


bac to bread-face no time to hav my proper meal...

wooo....whose eyes bigger?popping out!!!O.O


v copied d last pose for previous music D' amOur
APPRECIATE ='')


D' parts n partial of our rehearsal n practiscing time....
without aircon...without complain...
here we go....bunch of future music educators!!!
^_________^*


-biG family pOtrait of 6PISMP MU with sir STEVEN-
love u guys!!!muacks...XP

another music concert done by us~D' MUSIC 17

just lying.....

It was my 1^st time ever to visit a paralyze people tat dae

He is “singer”’s roommate which is my junior

Although im not close with him

but as IPTB-tian there is a need for me to pay a visit

pheeeeW….full of circumstances n obstacle in paying a visit

our time is way too early before the visiting hours

and so “singer”, “drummer”, “guitarist” and me go round and round d hospital kulim

to find our way….@@

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I saw him lying there unconsciously

A sudden sorrow shaded my heart

Stitches all over him

A tube was connected through his neck down to esophagus then stomach I guess

Another one for urine purposes

A needle-steel thing joined against his hand to reconstruct d bone I guess

Both his leg was being wrapped with a cushion-like stuff for massaging purpose I guess

It’s about two weeks for him to lie there since d accident

D’ thing is I could see his slightly movement on and off

They take turns to talk to him

“singer”:bangun u punya nestum sudah nak expire….

Pinjam printer….

Nak passup Anatomy assignment dah…

no respond***(but I think tat was funny thou)

“guitarist”: tolong jadi spy dan msg i…

merely smiles***(is tat?even guitarist saw tat)

“drummer”:…………

Too soft, must b smtg private I guess

Fathini!!!…I call him in heart

juz too shy to go near his ears..

or mayb he’ll wake n say who is this???=P

any recommendation or idea to help a paralyze one??

It doesn’t work todae…=(

an invitation sent.....but never return

juz ended Our muSiC cOncert 2010....
laSt season's musiC D' amOur hits high!!
buT this time
something seems to b missing~
a sOul...
an invitatiOn sent but never return...
our yOung yet talented "The TeaCher band" lead vOc....
xxxxxxxx
aiz...
i guess tats d 1st n laSt fOr me to see tat kind of band
their Spirit win my heart...

keep on going~
i believe "he" will see...

-D' forever G.E.M.U.R.U.H-

in memory...syamil

from d bottom of D' clOwn...

at last i can really rest myself....turn on my away mode ;)
my mind is definitely on a vacation thou my body is still in my hostel room
sometimes people may ask me hows my hostel life now?
well....i'll pause instanly....not because of not good
but juz tat there isn't a specific answer in my head
i would say depend on which perspective n from which point of view r u lookin for...
yah hostel is full of cocraches...bekfu(lizards)...bird's droppings..wild kitty cat's poo..
eeeeeeW~~~~o(>W<)o
ignore tat!!!!!!!
but for now...i juz found back my own territory
i hav more time for my stuff....for my interest...n really quest myself wat i really want
surprisingly when i tot i'll b alone
GOD prepared me with lots of care n love
from people around me these days especially my church members
which really caring n perform as a good listener
not to leftout some of my college frenz...thanks ='')
n im glad tat GOD is my forever friend and HE knew my need and matters
i can feel HIS presence nowadays....
my life is colourful...not tat anyone can see it....
but it lies in d soul of mine...

im on my path....

She's Like A Swallow That Never Flies...

juz finish my last vocal exam....
dragging my body without soul back hostel
heavy footsteps
pulling my slaughter body
what could i say~
DISASTER!!!!!
yah thats d proper word ever...
1st n foremost....
here's d situation of today
i was d 1st candidate of d opening of our 6PISMP-MU music practical exam
like owaz my stomach will b full of butterflies flying all over
cant hide d nervous feeling which appeared on my pale+sleepy+morning LOOK....
hooh....i was nervous for two reasons actually
1st...of course, exam what, thats d normal kind of feeling
2nd...piano accompaniment for David's singing
for guys who dunno David,
he is a prodigy in piano playing...
he's d kind of human where you give him a song to listen
he'll play infront of you d next minute
that is what NERVOUS for!!!
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now the moment is here...
i get in d exam room with my sleepy face
with a greet to MR. Sabri n Mr. Steven
n guess wat????
i got a pump on my heart when
He said:" You tak ada baju kurung kah? "
" kenapa tak makeup sikit.....pakai lipstick sikit "
" rambut juga..... "
haiz enuff....not to mention my look anymore
mayb i do LOOK a bit unpresentable as they said
but with this kind of comment as a starting of the main course...
im sure that d level of confidence will drop till d ice point
and i sing my "IBU" by p.ramlee like a defeat soldier (X_X)
mayb not so 夸张 but it does affect some lor...
i admit that i have no confidence in singing like my fren does
my body language n facial expression are equally weak
from there you'll only notice a word FRIGHT and STIFF
n honestly it shows when i sang IBU~
thou i try to fake some hand movement when i sang d 2nd song
"SHE'S LIKE A SWALLOW" after commented by lecturers
but i doesn't seems to be working out well...
the swallow is sick todae....X(
all i could see is
d disappointment from lecturers
especially Mr. SABRI
"i expect more from you gal....but u din manage to pull it off todae"
i almost in tears when this phrase comes to an end...
im down actually...coz this is d last vocal exam, no more in future
but i ended it this way~
i din opt for a 2nd chance mayb im tired....
but im proud and happie to see DAVID satisfy with my piano accompaniment,,
at least my overnite last minute practice paid-off!!!!(^O^)/

I guess singing is no more my cup of tea
i love singing n harmony singing
but i had no confidence to sing infront of people plus mic singing
hope d ensemble turnout to b a good one!!!!

finger-crossed...

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ensemble score

recorder score

church score

vocal score

my gosh!!!!!!i nearly lost my breath~~~

i need a break~red light...X_X